Well it tuesday... im sitting in class trying to do research on some stupid health thingy for a class. i wish school would be over already. Ive been like super tired lately, which is weird cause i thing i have been getting enough sleep. well i dont have anything else  to say. see see ya

Well i havent updated my live journal in forever. I dont like to write in it when things are so hectic. things seam to be a little calmer now... sorta. well this past saterday was so amazing. Me and my love got to go on a date to see avatar and go out to eat. We have had dates before but they were just casual fun things. This was a real i guess you would say formal date. But who cares what you would call it. it was Amazing!!!  I hope we get to have more dates like the one this past weekend. Mine and aleenes life together is going to be amazing, but before we can get to the point where we can get maried and live together we are going to have one more big obsticle to get past. a little after the end of the summer she is moving to abq. ya i know its only an hour away but that hour is to far. I dont want this to happen but i dont think there is any easy way to change it. We will be apart for just over 8 months. At least we will get to see each other on weekends, the only problem with the weekends is that even if she can come down every single weekend my dad gets visitation with me on the weekends and i dont know how easy it is going to be to get my dad to let me go out every weekend. but even if it isnt easy we will find a way. Our love is stronger than anything i have ever seen and we can get through anything!!! Aleene is the love of my life and i will be with her forever, no matter how hard things get. Im really not looking forward to this happening but at least we still have almost 6 months before this happens. There is still some time to figure everything out. My love is coming over today so maybe we can talk a little today, but also maybe talking about it will only make it hurt more. idk, things are changing and i dont like it. Not because i dont like change but because i have no control over how they are changing. No matter how hard i want to change everything I Dont Know How! ugh! im gonna go before i make my self upset. see ya

not much to say but..... im happy :-) lol!

Ya some spring break so far! All its been is arguments and stupid crap the whole time. I know some of it is my falt, of course, i can be stupid. But im not the only one that makes everything big. Things go from me asking a question that doesnt want to be answered to her not wanting to speak to me or see me! Maybe i should just learn how to not try to please any part of myself or my wants. Its starting to seam like thats the only way she will be happy. Idk what to do any more! Im tired of the arguing. I know i should work harder on not asking so much. But its seaming like she doesnt want to work on not being so sensitive to everything! Everything i say thats a little idk... she says annoying... she goes off on a rampage and ends up saying things that hurt me like ive never been hurt before. I mean ya ive had mean things said but ive never had the person i love tell me that i make then feel like shit. which ok if i do make her feel that way im a ass and i need to fix myself. But then latter she says that its not true, well why did she say it and make me feel like shit for hurting the one i love. Maybe im suposed to try to slow down and go about everything at her pace, but thats not what i want. I want the pace that me and her both said we wanted. The things i say are true, i never say things just for effect! I guess by now im just saying random shit that doesnt have any meaning, so im going. bye!

NO!!! it should not. Marriage is a life long commitment. if someone is going to get married they better be sure thats what they want. Personally i dont want to go to stand in a line to get my marriage licenss renewed. of course that line would be a lot shorter then the one at the DMV. But no it should not have a expiration date. Love doesnt expire, so marriage shouldnt.

Well its tuesday. i havent writen on here in like forever, cause... well i just didnt feel like spending the time to do it. Things have been kinda hectic and complicated lately. But things are getting better and starting to look up now. Im happy again so thats good. Its funny how i can be happy even when there is so much complication in life. But there is one thing that isnt complicated at all, Aleene. when it comes to my realationship with her i know exactly what is happening and what will hapen, there is nothing complicated about love!!!! This week is a little dificult to get through, but i will make it. Tomorow is going to suck cause i wont be able to see Aleene, I have a stupid dentist apointment so i wont be at school. This comming weekend comunications are going to be a little bit strained betweeen me and my love Aleene. We will make it through though cause the week after is spring break and me and her will find some way to be together and have some fun. I havent told my parents that next week in spring break because i dont want them to start making plans when i have no clue what my plans are yet. But we will find a way to make next week great. 

Lately i have been like super, idk, emo i guess. i wish it would go away, i dont like feeling like this and it causes to much strees in every thing. I know that my love hates seeing me upset or sad and i have been that way a lot lately. I need to find a way to make myself snap out of it so i wont cause her more greif. The strange thing about it is that even if i am emo or sad there is a part of me that is like totally super happy! i like that part of me, it needs to show itself more often. Well im running out of things to say now. Maybe i will right more later. Well see ya, bye.

Have Every Thing Needed In Life. My life sentence wouldnt change to often because even my mood is changing and things i still have that same feeling in the back of my mind.

I am like constantly texting! I normally only text one person ( my love Aleene.) every once in a while i will text familly to get info for things but it is usually just my love. When i text Aleene it can be anything from making plans for the day to just talking about random stuff that doesnt make any sense.

I can live without most things. The only one thing I need to have and could never live without is Aleene. I wouldn’t give her or our love up for anything! Not all the money in the world. I would rather be poor and have her then rich and not cause without her I have nothing. She makes me happy and happiness is the most important thing in life. Not Money! Of course I’m not against money; it would be nice to have money so I could do more things with Aleene. But I will be just as happy without the money sitting there doing nothing with her or just watching a movie! :-)